It simply flew by! The whole week simply went by so fast I couldn't even see it, let alone remember it.
I've had a lot going on. I nearly backed out of everything on Wednesday. We had another family crisis and we were just feeling the pressure from it. I had no idea what I was going to write for NaNoWriMo and that was due to start at midnight on Wednesday. When I went to bed that night, well before midnight, I still had nothing.
I went to work on Thursday. I had sent out prayer request to every person I knew who I felt would pray for me and I don't mean just a "God bless Dixie" prayer. I really needed someone to fix this mess I found swirling around me.
Thursday at work a phrase I'd stumbled on the night before in my stress induced haze began to take shape. So I spent breaks building on it and I was pretty happy by the time I got to my write-in that night.
Spending time with other WriMos is always energizing. I have a really great group this year. They're smart and witty and just interesting to be around. There were four of us there and it went well for me.
I felt a bit better and some of the family chaos ended and we've made some decisions on how we're going to handle future issues. David will probably move home soon and try to put his own life back together. I'm sorry for this. I just can't fix other people's problems anymore... I guess I never really could.
So, I'm at the end of day 3 of NaNo and I'm about 800 words from the daily count. It isn't where I want to be but as of today, I really hate the story so I'm in a bit of a pickle. It is hard to write what you hate. Once you've invested 5000 words in something you really do not want to have to start over. And honestly, I like the opening scene of the story. But there's no place to go and that is a bad thing.
Tonight, I've got Sarah spending the night. She's been here all day and that's a nice feeling. She went to the morning write-in and was just so good. The afternoon we had a few runs to make and we spent time watching Scooby Doo videos we bought. At the moment, she's been doing some drawing, writing and watching some dinosaur videos. I've done a bit on the story but I'm basically at a stand still.
I got an email today from someone who told me not long ago I used to be the most optimistic. I emailed back and simply said there is nothing to be optimistic about. To be honest, I have no idea who he's talking about. I don't recall ever being an optimist! I've always been the first one to say that the world is not going to get better. Life is going to get harder. People are going to get worse.
Now I'm going to try and get 800 words so I can put the thing to bed.
Good luck with NaNoWriMo - just kill off a character to get a new path.
ReplyDeleteThat was what I thought too ... just write a few characters out of the story and introduce people you like in it. But I'm not a writer so maybe that's impossible ;)
ReplyDeleteIt isn't impossible. They just don't like it! LOL
DeleteHmmm, and who's the boss? LOL
DeleteSorry that you've had more family chaos and that the story isn't going too well. I'm sure you can turn the story around, you're such a talented and experienced writer.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry that you are having such a tough time. I'm not a writer, so have no advice except to tell you to have faith in yourself and your abilities. You are an amazing woman. If I was there, I would give you a big hug.
ReplyDeleteremember, Dix... it doesn't have to be good, it just has to be words. If you've got words now, you can make it good later.
ReplyDeleteI was talking to my sister today over fb messenger and mentioned that sometimes it feels like life is living me. I'm glad it's not all the time but situations with family or whatever can be exhausting. I wish I could fix other's problems but I cannot either. So often the desicions of others effect a lot of people though including me. Just have to hold on and things even out eventually. God's hands are more than a cliche they are a safe place leave things in that we can't fix or change.
ReplyDeleteThings begin to fall into place within your writing. You have talent , best wishes!