Sunday, December 18, 2005

Christmas is Missing

Christmas is one week away. I don’t have my tree up yet. My sole concession to the season is a nice Christmas tablecloth and a lovely centerpiece that holds five candles, which I don’ t have. My aunt bought the candelabra for me when I admired it. We found it in a second hand shop that I simply love and from which I have bought dozens of home accessories. It came with a piece of greenery that the candles encircle. Last Christmas I bought some lovely Christmas flowers and some berries and stuck into the greenery. It has a gold net bow and the whole thing is very pretty.
Merry Christmas.

Yesterday I swept, vacuumed, dusted, moved furniture, washed clothes and dishes. I spent the whole day trying to clean up and get ready to put the tree up but by 5:00 p.m. I was so tired I could hardly move. So, I plan to put the tree up tomorrow night! I will! I want my tree up. I want to feel some kind of Christmas spirit.

I have still not mailed cards, although I have them out! No stamps. I should mail them I guess but payday is after the holiday.

Do you ever get the feeling that all this is a waste? That the whole reason has been lost? I don’t have small children at home anymore and something has changed. I used to enjoy the cooking of cookies, and cakes and decorating the house. I liked playing Christmas songs and hearing Alvin & the Chimpmunks sing about Christmas. I love Grandma Got Run Over by A Reindeer, and Silent Night, Away in a Manger, and We Three Kings. I love the song Feliz Navidad! I loved my special tree ornaments. Every year I buy a special unique ornament, but not this year. I like the feeling in the air when it is Christmas but this year there is none of that. I don’t know what happened.

Maybe Christmas never came this year. Maybe it won’t ever again.

Dixie Girl

Friday, December 16, 2005

Office Break....!

Oh for a day of my own! I wish that I didn't have to work so hard. Eight hours at a desk, after that home to pickup, cleanup, and try and find time around 10 or 11 for me!

I need a real vacation! Tahiti sounds wonderful to me, exotic, warm, and sunny. Someday, when I am too old to appreciate it I may be able to go there.

Jerry got the staples removed from his back on Wednesday. He is getting around a bit better but I think he is moving too fast. He wants to do all sorts of things that he should not do such as not getting up the way he is supposed to and moving in an awkward way.

I have slacked off my writing too much in pursuit of an interest that is really not my thing anyway. I need to make a bigger effort. I have looked at finding a net-based writing group but so far they all look rather lame. Not sure I want to do that.

I miss my friend Cecile because we could talk about writing all day and encourage each other. She was a great one to push me. I got very productive when she was doing that. She moved to New York and now I don't hear from her much.

Money is tight because Jerry still is not working. And Christmas will be pretty slim if it exist at all. I am at the point that I am not sure I want to put the tree up or not. Mike and Gina won't be home; they will be at her folks this year. They were here Thanksgiving. They got their presents when they were here. My limit is $50 each. Next year they are supposed to spend Christmas with us.

Dave and Becca are, of course, living with us again because of their own money problems. I have given Dave & Becca part of their Christmas money to pay a debt they must take care of now. They will get the rest at Christmas. And that is it.

The car is bad, very bad. Water is puddled on the floor on the driver's side. It freezes when the temp drops. Frost on the inside results at night and I scrape inside and out so I can see. The seat is broken on one side so I am sitting sidways a bit when I drive and it makes my back hurt. The suspension appears to be a bit ... uh... well it just isn't very good. Tires need replacing. Something is wrong with the transmission. I have been driving along and it just stops, not goes dead, just stops. I have to shift into another gear and then back to drive. THAT is very nerve racking. I am terrified that I will be on the expressway doing 55 and this will happen. So..... I take back streets home and to work most of the time. I avoid the expressway, which isn't an expressway anyway.

I get nervous when we go to church. We have to cross the Ohio River and I am already terrified of crossing birdges. The thought of something stopping me there is something I can't even think about. But I do. We drive about 30 minutes to church, twice on Sunday and if we get a chance we go other nights too.

I never hear from anyone but my Aunt in Atlanta. I get email from my Dad and step mom, and my dad's sister. I get lots of email from friends and aquaintences but no contact from four brothers and a sister in Florida and Alabama. I did try and reply when the sister wrote but it was all about her "poor, mistreated, and misunderstood" self, so I just gave up. Too depressing dwelling on the past, most of which didn't exist anyway. I no longer make attempts to be social, stamps are too expensive and I do not have long distance anymore. My phone card is used for emergencies and to call my mother once in awhile.

My sister, Phyllis, lives nearby and we take a day once in awhile to do girl stuff, like hit the book stores. I love Barnes & Noble. I would love to have my own bookstore but have no idea where to start. I am trying to get enough hobbies to break a record. So far I am up to writing, reading, crochet, playing my keyboard, sewing, remodeling, web design and finally blogging. Let's see, what else could be called a hobby? Eating? Maybe, sometimes. Sleeping? Nah, I don't get enough of that to call it a habit, let alone a hobby.

Anyway, I felt compelled to stop and take a break and dash off some astounding post for this blog. So far boring....... I must get back to the grindstone, the nose feels better now.

Dixie Girl

Friday, December 2, 2005

Center of the Universe




This is our family BDL (before daughter-in-law)












Dave & Becca - November 13, 2004 - She is a sweet as she is pretty!



Dixie Girl

Sunday, November 27, 2005

Time for a Break!

Thanksgiving is OVER! This has been the busiest week I can remember at home.

Tuesday night my son, Mike, came in from Arkansas with his wife, Gina. We were so glad to see them. I took Wednesday off but did not cook as planned. I don't remember exactly what I did that day. The rest of the week sort of followed suit.

Thursday my son, David, came over and my sister, Phyllis. Phyllis, Gina and I cooked dinner. Becca, David's wife had to work until 8 p.m. and so we decided to have our dinner ready about that time so she could join us. We did but were nearly famished by then. She came but had eaten at work! Ah, the joys of family. Won't do that again.

Then Friday Gina and I went shopping. I hate shopping on a good day. The day after Thanksgiving is NOT a good day. We went to Cato's where I gave Gina a gift certificate for her Christmas present and we went to a couple of other stores. They will be at her folks on Christmas and so get their presents now. I got Mike a webcam and myself one. He told me he wants to see my beaufitul face when we chat. So he got a webcam. Aren't sons wonderful?

Friday night we were going to watch movies and I wound up watching The Ring 2 by myself. Liked it. Not as scary as the first and not as much fun alone. Dave was supposed to watch it with me but Becca called him home. She didn't want to watch movies. He came back Saturday and watched it by himself.Gina and Mike don't care for scary movies. Jerry went to bed about halfway through. I am glad I like my own company.

Saturday we did some more shopping. We came back and Gina & I watched National Treasure. I liked it and then we played some Uno Attack. Gina bought me that for Christmas. Don't know what will happen when she goes home. No one to play games with unless I can get the other two over and Jerry will play.

Mike & Gina brought their cat, named CindyLu. Gina added the Lu because I don't think she is comfortable calling the cat by her mother-in-law's name. I don't really mind. It makes Mike happy. But every time he called the cat I kept answering!

We have Dave & Becca's dog because they don't know how to house break one. Raven, black lab pup. She met the cat and they got along famously. Had to call the dog off a few times because she thought the cat was a chew toy.

And so Sunday is here. Morning church, afternoon relax, night church. Have to go wash my tresses, take a nap and then be ready to leave by 6 p.m. I will get home around 11:00 p.m.

Thank goodness I get to go back to work tomorrow!

Thursday.... back surgery for Jerry. It begins again.

Dixie Girl

Sunday, November 20, 2005

The Play's the Thing

Someone already said that but it works. For the last month my spouse and I have been involved in practicing a play at church. Friday and Saturday nights were performace nights. It went well and I had a blast doing it. But I am so tired.

We taped it so copies could be made and anyone who wanted one could buy it. I watched the tape last night and do you know it is true that the camera adds 10 pounds to a person! Really. I will probably never wear that blouse again. It didn't look that bad in the mirror.

I started this blog thing a week ago and have not had time to really investigate what it is and how it works. I,of course, know what it is, but not exactly how everything works. I already have a web site so this seems a bit much. Who wants to talk to me anyway?

I do see some positive effects. My family can post and we could keep in touch much better that way since most of them never call. I have about 40 people in my address book and IM so there is a group to tap into. Of course, this assumes that they want to put messages here.

Then there is this little forum I am participating in at the moment. Involves history regarding the French Revolution, more specifically Marie Antoinette. Do you know there are people out there who actual dream of this dead queen? I suspect some of them have little altars to her. Really. And some of them can get quite hostile when you tread on their little queen. Do it anyway. It makes the site so much more interesting.

Visit it if you like history, like Marie Antoinette, or you want to read my post. If you are interested in joining the fray,contact Axel, the moderator. He is always looking for new members to add a bit of spice. The address is in the links section. Tell him Dixie Girl sent you.

My posting has been fun and there are some very nice people with lots of smarts participating. It has allowed me free rein of my sarcasm and writing. Both of which need work! Axel keeps asking for more so I guess it is ... well, good seems a bit arrogant of me.

Mike is coming home for the holiday. He and Gina will be home on Tuesday night. I will be so glad to see them. Mike has called nearly every day to say he is coming home in x days. Driving us crazy but I understand he is excited. We will be 6 for Turkey day.

David will be here but Becca has to work a double shift at the nursing home and so may not make it. Phyllis, my sis, will be here, too. We all plan on playing Clue, and Uno, and Twister and anything else we can think up. We love playing games on holidays.

The boys and I always did that when they were growning up. Jerry would usually be watching the games on television and the boys and I and Phyllis would be playing board games. The girls they married seem to like the tradition and now everyone wants to play games on holidays. I am glad. It is good quality time and everyone has fun.

I may not post again for another week but if you stop in please add a post to let me know you were here. Like I said, this is new territory and I am discovering what I can do with it. Check out the website and read the stories on the last page. I am nearly done with an update and soon there will be more.

Later.

Dixie Girl

Monday, November 14, 2005

Getting Started

I am so new at this. Just set this up on the spur of the moment. It is 1 a.m. and I have to be at work by 8 a.m. I have to stop this late night stuff!
Why in the world do I need a blog? I will be back to spruce it up when I am not drooping over the keyboard and can see straight.
I don't know how long this will last... What could I possibly have to say?
Visit my website. www.cindysplace.4t.com Far more interesting. An update is coming soon.