For the first time in over a month, my brain feels clear. That's fibro for you. Can't think for days and then it's like you've been through a colon cleanse in your head.
I know, it sounds gross. However, the sensation of having all the gunk flushed out of your brain is amazing.
Now I just have to get stuff done. Well, if the clarity lasts. I haven't written in over a week, except for brief scenes. It's worrying me. I want this first draft of the second book done. Yesterday.
I'm up late because I have not taken my medication they gave me to help me sleep. Why? Because I think it is conflicting with another medication I'm taking and leaving me with brain fog. Tonight, the fog cleared, and that's rather weird how it did that. I've been tired until about eight o'clock. If I had taken the pill, I'd already be in bed and asleep. I need to sleep. But natural sleep.
I've been walking since last October, hurt myself by overdoing it, went to PT and started back in February. I'm up to 1.6 miles as of Tuesday. But the fatigue and fog were really giving me a hard time. I was fine while walking, but once done, I really wanted to lie down. This week, it seemed worse. So, I stopped taking that medication.
Now we wait and see. I should know for sure by the weekend. The bad news is, it has been helping with some of the pain I've been having because of the pinched nerve.
Lord help me, I hate this mess. I have the nerve conduction test in two weeks. That will be so thrilling. Electrifying. I will become a test dummy for the zombie line. They'll stick pins in my spine, neck, and arms and zap them with electricity to see if I react. Not sure what is appropriate, but it will certainly jolt me. The goal is to trace the nerve's restriction.
Lately, I'm just tired of all the stress from never knowing what will affect me and how. Medicines that cause side effects or neural functions that suddenly go haywire for no apparent reason except I opened the fridge or turned on the faucet. (Analogies). Or cramps in the middle of the night. Although since I switched to magnesium malate, they've stopped. Thank God for that. Now I get cramps from the carpel tunnel brought on by 50 years of computer work and writing.
I've had wonderful times in my life, but I really could have done without the penalties.
So, I'm headed off to the land of Nod. If you know, you know. If you don't know, you can ask me.
