I'm not sure I have an answer to that but I'd say at this point, pretty tired. I feel as if I'll fall over any minute. I still have two hours to go. I'm going to have to go home and go straight to bed and I hate that. I like to relax a bit in the evenings when I get home but tonight, I'm headed for the sack. I just hope I can sleep.
I'm totally out of sick time so I can't miss a day or I'll eat up vacation days. From now to January I don't want to be sick anymore. I would have 45 hours of sick time by Dec. 31 if I don't have to be out for any reason. {sigh}
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Ugh, Bug
I'm decidedly under the weather. I think I have a cold and I'm terribly depressed on top of it. I had lots of pain yesterday and that is better today. I called Dave and Becca over for pizza last night, although I was exhausted. I needed the company.
As you recall Sunday night I'd had that near panic event, sounds much less violent than attack, and was up until nearly 3 a.m. and my pain was pretty bad the next morning when I got up. I stayed home but my doctor's office was closed yesterday so I didn't get a shot. I didn't go to bed as early as I should have last night but I was truly feeling miserable by bedtime. I was so tired I could not relax. And my neck is really hurting. Pain in other places is less this morning but I had Becca put some of the medicine I have for joint pain on my back, along my spine, to see if it helped. I think it did with some of it. I do have a headache now and feel very tired but I actually think I have a cold. My nose has been stuffy for days.
I'm really rather tired of all these aches and pains. And I'm tired of the blue feeling that is constantly with me. I don't think this is depression exactly but maybe it is. I am in the midst of a foggy period but I again think this is a sleep issue. I am sorely overdue for a real vacation where I leave my troubles behind. And I don't have my car die.
I am going out of town on Friday to spend the weekend in Louisville with my aunt and uncle who are attending a quartet convention. It is a short drive so it won't be too tiring and maybe the weather will be perfect so I can find a nice place to sit in the sun. I noticed since the weather and mosquitoes have been so crappy and kept me inside that I don't feel as well. Maybe I should spend the money on one of those mood lights. The evenings have been pleasant but the mosquitoes are absolutely horrendous if you go outside. I don't know what to do but they are bad.
Work is no so backlogged so I'm not buried at the moment and that's good. I just hate getting some things I processed back so frequently. I'm making far too many mistakes. And I thought I was checking carefully.
Must go now and get to working the mine. I hope you day is off to a better start than mine. There is a Midwest Writer's meeting tonight but I don't know if I'll go or not. I'm longing for bed time.
As you recall Sunday night I'd had that near panic event, sounds much less violent than attack, and was up until nearly 3 a.m. and my pain was pretty bad the next morning when I got up. I stayed home but my doctor's office was closed yesterday so I didn't get a shot. I didn't go to bed as early as I should have last night but I was truly feeling miserable by bedtime. I was so tired I could not relax. And my neck is really hurting. Pain in other places is less this morning but I had Becca put some of the medicine I have for joint pain on my back, along my spine, to see if it helped. I think it did with some of it. I do have a headache now and feel very tired but I actually think I have a cold. My nose has been stuffy for days.
I'm really rather tired of all these aches and pains. And I'm tired of the blue feeling that is constantly with me. I don't think this is depression exactly but maybe it is. I am in the midst of a foggy period but I again think this is a sleep issue. I am sorely overdue for a real vacation where I leave my troubles behind. And I don't have my car die.
I am going out of town on Friday to spend the weekend in Louisville with my aunt and uncle who are attending a quartet convention. It is a short drive so it won't be too tiring and maybe the weather will be perfect so I can find a nice place to sit in the sun. I noticed since the weather and mosquitoes have been so crappy and kept me inside that I don't feel as well. Maybe I should spend the money on one of those mood lights. The evenings have been pleasant but the mosquitoes are absolutely horrendous if you go outside. I don't know what to do but they are bad.
Work is no so backlogged so I'm not buried at the moment and that's good. I just hate getting some things I processed back so frequently. I'm making far too many mistakes. And I thought I was checking carefully.
Must go now and get to working the mine. I hope you day is off to a better start than mine. There is a Midwest Writer's meeting tonight but I don't know if I'll go or not. I'm longing for bed time.
Monday, September 13, 2010
Typical Monday Following A Lovely Weekend
For me anyway. I had a mild panic attack last night and had to call Becca at midnight to talk to me. I listened to her until 3 a.m. I'm exhausted but the attack passed off for the most part. LOL, yes, she can talk that much and I don't know what I'd do without her. I want to smack her sometimes but she's a good daughter despite that. I love her.
I woke with pain in my neck, back, hip and knees! The hip is bursitis. I felt like an old lady. But I actually had a fairly good weekend despite knees that hated me. Sarah came on Friday night and I took her home after church last night. She was just a doll baby and we had the most fun all weekend. I was exhausted but had one of the happiest weekends in a while. I had one moment where I broke down. I was cleaning and picked up our family Bible and sat down to see what I had entered in it. I found Jerry's baptismal certificate where he was baptized when he came back from Italy. Sarah wanted to know what was wrong but I tried to refocus on something else... cleaning proceeded.
Sarah had no problem until bedtime Friday and Saturday night. Then, she whimpered a short time. She is a TERRIBLE sleeper. That child is all over the place. So my sleep probably wasn't the best. She's afraid of the dark and I have to leave a light on in the next room, too. But it worked itself out and I was so thrilled she stayed I didn't care about the light... or the small foot that seemed to find my ribs no matter which way I turned.
On Saturday night, her mother stopped by with clothes for her for church Sunday morning. Sarah acted as if she had not seen them in years but when offered the chance to go home she declined. However, at bedtime, you would not believe the garbage she came up with. She sobbed huge sobs with tears. "I miss my mama. I never get to spend any time with her. I love her so much. I didn't even get to kiss her or give her a hug." All of which was a blatant lie. I watched amazed and she did this for several minutes until I said, "You need to stop that crap, that's a bunch of garbage." The little stink started giggling and laughing so hard! I couldn't believe it. Then, she started it again, sobbing and with tears. I told her again it was garbage and to stop and she giggled again. We did this for about three times before she just stopped and settled down. What a drama queen! We have to nip that in the bud!
We had a grand time all weekend. We watched movies, played with the doll house, read stories, and went shopping. I bought her a memory game which she loved. So we are now getting to the game phase. I'm glad. Getting down to play dolls is hard work for those knees.
I am home today because I couldn't hardly walk and the panic attack left me emotionally wobbly. I'm going to call my doctor to see about a shot for my hip. I don't think they can do more for my joints than they are doing so I'll have to deal with that differently.
I hope you all have a great start to the week. I hope that I can have more weekends like this with less stress. I'm really tired of living in the dark all the time. I would like for life to be a little fun again. We did have some good times. I just keep missing them so much and I don't have any way to fix it. I'm still planning to take my vacation next year to see my friends in England. And I probably ought to start thinking about when and how long. I'm saving vacations days as much as I can. It will break my bank probably but this is something I am doing for me and maybe a little for Jerry. He would have loved to go with me.
I haven't been able to be outside much these last few weeks because the "mossie's" as Jilly refers to them have been horrendous. I came in one afternoon, after standing in the yard talking to someone for about 30 minutes, with dozens of bites. I counted over 25. I didn't realize I was getting bitten! I was scared to death I'd have a reaction to them like Jilly had or worse. We have had some cases in the past of West Nile virus here. I get terrified of the bites when I hear that.
So, I'm going now to call the doctor about the shot. I hate the shot. It hurts like the dickens but if it works, it will help me. Or I may call the pain management doctor. I've also had sciatica in my back for a couple of weeks. It is unusual because it is on the right side rather than the left but I think I'm walking out of alignment because of the hip pain and that is aggravating other things. Oh well, I had so much good over the weekend, I'm not going to allow other things to take that away.
All of you, again, have a great week!
I woke with pain in my neck, back, hip and knees! The hip is bursitis. I felt like an old lady. But I actually had a fairly good weekend despite knees that hated me. Sarah came on Friday night and I took her home after church last night. She was just a doll baby and we had the most fun all weekend. I was exhausted but had one of the happiest weekends in a while. I had one moment where I broke down. I was cleaning and picked up our family Bible and sat down to see what I had entered in it. I found Jerry's baptismal certificate where he was baptized when he came back from Italy. Sarah wanted to know what was wrong but I tried to refocus on something else... cleaning proceeded.
Sarah had no problem until bedtime Friday and Saturday night. Then, she whimpered a short time. She is a TERRIBLE sleeper. That child is all over the place. So my sleep probably wasn't the best. She's afraid of the dark and I have to leave a light on in the next room, too. But it worked itself out and I was so thrilled she stayed I didn't care about the light... or the small foot that seemed to find my ribs no matter which way I turned.
On Saturday night, her mother stopped by with clothes for her for church Sunday morning. Sarah acted as if she had not seen them in years but when offered the chance to go home she declined. However, at bedtime, you would not believe the garbage she came up with. She sobbed huge sobs with tears. "I miss my mama. I never get to spend any time with her. I love her so much. I didn't even get to kiss her or give her a hug." All of which was a blatant lie. I watched amazed and she did this for several minutes until I said, "You need to stop that crap, that's a bunch of garbage." The little stink started giggling and laughing so hard! I couldn't believe it. Then, she started it again, sobbing and with tears. I told her again it was garbage and to stop and she giggled again. We did this for about three times before she just stopped and settled down. What a drama queen! We have to nip that in the bud!
We had a grand time all weekend. We watched movies, played with the doll house, read stories, and went shopping. I bought her a memory game which she loved. So we are now getting to the game phase. I'm glad. Getting down to play dolls is hard work for those knees.
I am home today because I couldn't hardly walk and the panic attack left me emotionally wobbly. I'm going to call my doctor to see about a shot for my hip. I don't think they can do more for my joints than they are doing so I'll have to deal with that differently.
I hope you all have a great start to the week. I hope that I can have more weekends like this with less stress. I'm really tired of living in the dark all the time. I would like for life to be a little fun again. We did have some good times. I just keep missing them so much and I don't have any way to fix it. I'm still planning to take my vacation next year to see my friends in England. And I probably ought to start thinking about when and how long. I'm saving vacations days as much as I can. It will break my bank probably but this is something I am doing for me and maybe a little for Jerry. He would have loved to go with me.
I haven't been able to be outside much these last few weeks because the "mossie's" as Jilly refers to them have been horrendous. I came in one afternoon, after standing in the yard talking to someone for about 30 minutes, with dozens of bites. I counted over 25. I didn't realize I was getting bitten! I was scared to death I'd have a reaction to them like Jilly had or worse. We have had some cases in the past of West Nile virus here. I get terrified of the bites when I hear that.
So, I'm going now to call the doctor about the shot. I hate the shot. It hurts like the dickens but if it works, it will help me. Or I may call the pain management doctor. I've also had sciatica in my back for a couple of weeks. It is unusual because it is on the right side rather than the left but I think I'm walking out of alignment because of the hip pain and that is aggravating other things. Oh well, I had so much good over the weekend, I'm not going to allow other things to take that away.
All of you, again, have a great week!
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Taking a Stand for Stupidity?
Link
Once more a so called Christian makes a stand for stupidity.
I respect his right to free speech. He can burn anything he wants, even the American flag, which would truly tic me off. But he could still do it.
However, if he doesn't believe in the Koran why would he even bother to waste a match? Never mind the harm he is doing to the environment with the smoke.
I'm at a loss as to what his point is since up to now, I've not seen any reference to one except he believes Islam is of the devil. Since I'm not on speaking terms with that particular entity, I can't say. I am on speaking terms with Jesus... y'all laugh if you want. You aren't laughing at this guy.
Jesus said,
Mat 5:7 Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy.
Mat 5:9 Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God.
Mat 5:38 Ye have heard that it hath been said, An eye for an eye, and a tooth for a tooth:
Mat 5:39 But I say unto you, That ye resist not evil: but whosoever shall smite thee on thy right cheek, turn to him the other also.
Mat 5:40 And if any man will sue thee at the law, and take away thy coat, let him have thy cloke also.
Mat 5:41 And whosoever shall compel thee to go a mile, go with him twain.
Mat 5:42 Give to him that asketh thee, and from him that would borrow of thee turn not thou away.
Mat 5:44 But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;
Mat 5:45 That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust.
I could go on but this is pretty apt. This man has broken every single one of these instructions, in fact, I seriously doubt he read this part at all. Do we stone him?
As for the White House and our elected officials trying to stop him? Well, folks, either we believe we have a right to express our opinions in this country or we don't. We can't have it both ways. Dumb as dirt this guy may be but with our politicians he's in good company. Free speech isn't selective.
We're in a quandary, at a cross roads. Either we support the right of every human being to say what they believe or we don't. There is no picking and choosing who is allowed to speak. And burning a book is not equal to chopping off heads. The Nazi's burned books all the time but it is the gas chambers they are remembered for.
If this were a Bible, would we still be up in arms? If it were the American flag would it received such media coverage? Would anyone say a word about someone burning the American Constitution? The Declaration of Independence? I seriously doubt any of these would garner more than a spot on the ten o'clock news and two inches under the fold. But burning a book that you say is evil is kind of like setting fire to Jack Daniels for the same reason. My grandmother didn't believe in alcoholism. She said no one made them turn that bottle up. It was a choice. Drunks kill people, too.
I figure that's pretty much what the Koran is. You swallow it or not. And like it or not, some Muslims kill people for no reason other than we don't believe in their religion. Americans just say it louder. But burning it won't make much different and may actually defeat your purpose. Most banned books are read by people wanting to see what all the fuss is about. Salmon Rushdie made a killing after the Ayatollah put a contract out on his life. This rube in Florida is just furthering the cause. Too bad Mohamed is dead, he could retire to the Palm Springs.
Stupidity reigns.
Incidentially, I am a Christian. I do not support stupidity in any form.
Once more a so called Christian makes a stand for stupidity.
I respect his right to free speech. He can burn anything he wants, even the American flag, which would truly tic me off. But he could still do it.
However, if he doesn't believe in the Koran why would he even bother to waste a match? Never mind the harm he is doing to the environment with the smoke.
I'm at a loss as to what his point is since up to now, I've not seen any reference to one except he believes Islam is of the devil. Since I'm not on speaking terms with that particular entity, I can't say. I am on speaking terms with Jesus... y'all laugh if you want. You aren't laughing at this guy.
Jesus said,
Mat 5:7 Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy.
Mat 5:9 Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God.
Mat 5:38 Ye have heard that it hath been said, An eye for an eye, and a tooth for a tooth:
Mat 5:39 But I say unto you, That ye resist not evil: but whosoever shall smite thee on thy right cheek, turn to him the other also.
Mat 5:40 And if any man will sue thee at the law, and take away thy coat, let him have thy cloke also.
Mat 5:41 And whosoever shall compel thee to go a mile, go with him twain.
Mat 5:42 Give to him that asketh thee, and from him that would borrow of thee turn not thou away.
Mat 5:44 But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;
Mat 5:45 That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust.
I could go on but this is pretty apt. This man has broken every single one of these instructions, in fact, I seriously doubt he read this part at all. Do we stone him?
As for the White House and our elected officials trying to stop him? Well, folks, either we believe we have a right to express our opinions in this country or we don't. We can't have it both ways. Dumb as dirt this guy may be but with our politicians he's in good company. Free speech isn't selective.
We're in a quandary, at a cross roads. Either we support the right of every human being to say what they believe or we don't. There is no picking and choosing who is allowed to speak. And burning a book is not equal to chopping off heads. The Nazi's burned books all the time but it is the gas chambers they are remembered for.
If this were a Bible, would we still be up in arms? If it were the American flag would it received such media coverage? Would anyone say a word about someone burning the American Constitution? The Declaration of Independence? I seriously doubt any of these would garner more than a spot on the ten o'clock news and two inches under the fold. But burning a book that you say is evil is kind of like setting fire to Jack Daniels for the same reason. My grandmother didn't believe in alcoholism. She said no one made them turn that bottle up. It was a choice. Drunks kill people, too.
I figure that's pretty much what the Koran is. You swallow it or not. And like it or not, some Muslims kill people for no reason other than we don't believe in their religion. Americans just say it louder. But burning it won't make much different and may actually defeat your purpose. Most banned books are read by people wanting to see what all the fuss is about. Salmon Rushdie made a killing after the Ayatollah put a contract out on his life. This rube in Florida is just furthering the cause. Too bad Mohamed is dead, he could retire to the Palm Springs.
Stupidity reigns.
Incidentially, I am a Christian. I do not support stupidity in any form.
Sleep Shortage
I needed more sleep this morning but I managed to crawl out at 7 a.m. I am ready for work now and will leave shortly. I have appointments until noon.
I think I have a cold. That is the only thing I can think of that makes me feel so rotten with out any major symptoms but a runny nose, headache, and tiredness. Or a sinus problem. Anyway, I need to sleep more. If I still feel lousy by the time I'm done, I may take off early but I know if I got to sleep early I'll be up before daylight. I may have to take something.
It is undecided if it will be cloudy or sunny here. I'm praying for about two days of steady rain. The water is so bad it is now undrinkable. I'm using bottled water exclusively for drinking and cooking... what little I do of that. This can't be healthy when it stinks so bad.
Hope you all have a really great day.
I think I have a cold. That is the only thing I can think of that makes me feel so rotten with out any major symptoms but a runny nose, headache, and tiredness. Or a sinus problem. Anyway, I need to sleep more. If I still feel lousy by the time I'm done, I may take off early but I know if I got to sleep early I'll be up before daylight. I may have to take something.
It is undecided if it will be cloudy or sunny here. I'm praying for about two days of steady rain. The water is so bad it is now undrinkable. I'm using bottled water exclusively for drinking and cooking... what little I do of that. This can't be healthy when it stinks so bad.
Hope you all have a really great day.
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